Winz

It's a Steal !!!

2010-06-27T15:35:00.003+08:00

There is this special feeling when you step into a secondhand bookstore. For book lovers like me, a secondhand bookstore is like a treasure trove, full of surprises whereby you will not know what books you may find and also what unique contents that are in those books that were sold off (Example: special messages and notes).

So, last Saturday, I took the chance of visiting one secondhand bookstore in Chowrasta market as I was nearby the area. There were so many books, I did not really have the time to look through every single one of them. There were old and new books lying everywhere. The "old" books weren't so old and they were still in good condition. I saw books by Cecelia Ahern, Stephen King, Dan Brown, Jodi Picoult and so many other fictional novel authors that I loved so much.

Anyway, after searching for roughly 45 minutes, I ended up with these two books, Stephen King's Cujo and Dorothy Koomson's The Chocolate Run.

It was a steal!! Two books for the price of RM28 and they were in good condition. After I am done with them, I plan to go back for a second bargain. This time I am aiming for Dan Brown's Digital Fortress. XD

Attraction...

2010-04-29T17:28:00.001+08:00

It is simple really.. what you fear the most is inevitable. This is simply called the law of attraction.
The more you think of it, the less focus you are of the task at hand and this will cause that fear will show itself.
That is why Buddhism teaches us never to envy but be happy for others. Not to compare but be grateful.

So? Be good and do your work in the best way possible. After all, the only record you need to beat, is your own. ^^

I will miss all of it... I know I will...

2010-04-14T18:28:00.004+08:00

I love those moments where you have the time to reflect on life. Yes.. my life has always been busy or I made it to be busy because I like it that way. I feel alive when I complete a task, be it a small one or a big one. This is one of those rare times where I have the chance to blog when I actually have the mood to. Sitting here alone with a great view in front of me, I reflected back through the last three years of my life.

I have a month left of my university life before I graduate into the working world. I am excited to work as I have many plans to carry out but in a way, I have a feeling that I would miss my university life. My university life did not start off as easily compared to other newbies like me. I had trouble fitting in due to some language barriers but I managed to pull through. Its all thanks to the support given to me by the people around me. The main support given were from 3 important individuals in my life (Mom , Sis and Jian). They made me fight for what I believe in and also for what I want. Without them, things wont even be as they are now.

Plenty of thanks to Ming Ming, whose support and hugs can be felt all the way from Malacca! Who could forget my Garfield-loving otaku friend,Keng Yee, who had accompanied me through the 17 years of my life and is now complaining she sees me too much. ^^ I could not be more grateful to have the opportunity to meet these two happy-go-lucky people, Sok Li and Ah Howe, who made me realized that life is meant to be enjoyed. You could never see a frown on their faces and they are often contented with what they have. Not to mention my techie friends, Frankie (the gummy bear crazed guy), PM (monkey + stuffed stuff + DSLR crazed gal) and McKhor (Haha.. I still can't be sure what he is crazy bout'). I'll always remember all the "sampat" things we do. There are many cherished memories... Memories I hope I will never forget.

I felt that with these people around me and the opportunities I took to learn, I managed to become more mature over these years. I am happier, much more responsible, more knowledgeable and I know what I want in life. The best part of all of these is that I can now managed to see things in a bigger picture and much more optimistic view.

I was not the only one who changed through these years. I had the chance to see others grow as well. There where those who came out stronger from all the challenges, more cheerful when facing difficulties and in the end , becoming a better person. Seeing these changes in those surrounding me, I managed to convince myself that people can change for the better if they are given the change along with a helping hand. Despite of some of the hardships I have been through, I am glad and I do not think I would change anything. I won't change the friends I have, the lesson I have learnt and most of all, I won't trade my experiences in this university. They helped made me who I am today.

Sunrise and Sunset

2010-01-27T11:46:00.004+08:00

Start of a brand new day and a brand new resolve.

End of a good day and job well done.

No longer do I start the day demotivated.

If others can't motivate you, find something that can.

What is ~Life~ if you cannot appreciate it?

2009-11-16T10:25:00.004+08:00

The roots told the leaves there aren't enough water to last them over the drought. They requested the leaves to gather as much dew as possible and pass it to them before the tree starts to die. There were only a few days left before water runs out. The leaves didn't fully comprehend and just nodded their agreement. When they ran out of water and started to wilt, they blame the roots. In the end, the tree died.

Why? Cos no one bothered to listen to the roots.

What is the optimistic point of view of this? Ponder on and I'll continue it later.

You do not like to smile???

2009-08-31T15:23:00.000+08:00

Then, you should read this.This is something I posted years ago in a very old blog of mine and I recently stumbled upon it.

TITLE: Smile

Smile!

It costs nothing but creates much.

It enriches those who receives it

without impoverishing those who give it.

It happens in a flash,

and the memory of it sometimes lasts forever.

None are so rich they can get along without it,

and none are so poor but are richer for its benefits.

It creates happinessin the home,

fosters goodwill in business,

and is the countersign of friends.

It is rest to the weary, daylight to the discouraged,

sunshine to the sad, and nature's best antidote for trouble.

Yet it cannot be bought, begged, borrowed or stolen,

for it is something that is no earthly good to anyone until it is given away!

And if you should meet someone too tired or sick or depressed to give you a smile,

make sure you leave them one of yours.

For no one needs a smile so much as those who have none left to give.

A smile is always welcomed

for it opens doors and hearts as if it were a key.

Smile!

- author unknown-

Think back to those times when you're down. Was there a person who came up and smiled? Cheered you up? Did that create an impression on you?

Smiles are free but they are priceless. So just smile and you might just brighten up someone's day!

Cubicle Toys... Aha..!

2009-08-23T12:45:00.000+08:00

For the past week, I have been searching for things to relieve my stress or in a way, help me find solutions for the programs I have been doing. In the end, this little fella (My little Yellow) ended up as my victim. Poor guy.. He was squeezed , dragged and punched by my colleagues too.. [office violence]

So I went looking for cubicle toys and I came upon some *ahem* cool stuff. Seriously..

So if you're bored and looking forward to doing some damage around the office,this is one of the toys for you. Introducing the USB wireless rocket launc her!

Seems cool right? They have additional ammo that you can purchase.There are various other rocket launchers such as the USB webcam rocket launcher. If you want something that is harmless , you can check out the plush gun and grenade.(the concept seems funny.. haha)

They also have cool interactive shirts on the site. The 8-bit dynamic life shirt is one of my personal favourites. To check for other stuff that they have, here is the link ---> www.thinkgeek.com.

On another matter, I realised I have been listening to some old and new favourites songs of mine from Evanescence, U2 and the All-American Rejects. Here are some of the songs:

Evanescence:

1. Going Under

2. Call Me When You're Sober

3. Everybody's Fool

4. Good Enough ( This is a slow song from them that I really like)

U2:

1. The sweetest thing ( I like this video..)

2. Elevation

3. Vertigo

The All American Rejects:

1. Swing Swing

2. Dirty Little Secret

3. Gives You Hell

4. I Wanna

Thank goodness it's Friday!!

2009-08-21T23:08:00.000+08:00

Everyone have a nice weekend ahead!

My sudden craze..

2009-08-18T20:25:00.000+08:00

Introducing my sudden craze in.... WEB DESIGN!!

Ever since I have been introduced to PHP and css by my mentor, I have been searching around the WWW for interesting blogs, blogs with designs that blow my mind away and also blogs that teach me more about web designs and layouts. Here are a few websites that I find interesting and is worth the time to check out... You can click on the pictures to go to the websites. These are the websites you would not want to miss...

A List Apart
This website gives you the information you'll need to learn and explore explores the design, development, and meaning of web content. There are many different and experienced web designers that actually chip in their articles.

Cheth Studios
This is a blog which proves that Blogger blogs can look real good. There are many more cool stuff in here.

Zen Garden
Those who do not know the greatness and beauty of css can have a look at Zen Garden. The concept is really simple. Same documents , different layouts, one css file. For those who really want to learn about css, you can check out all the designs they have and check out how they coded it.

The following three websites are basically flash websites but I find their concepts to be really nice. Take for example, the StarbucksCoffeeAtHome website, the way they played with the colours are just awesome and GotMilk's is just cute and interactive.

As for BrownBagFilms, their website is very in tuned to the work that they are promoting. They also have a blog that you can check out.

If you're interested in nicer websites, you can check out DesignBombs. They showcase the some of the nicest websites.

This roughly sums up the post. There will be more from me as I attempt to learn more about web designs and indulging myself in this craze.

1 Hati , 1 Malaysia

2009-08-09T22:08:00.005+08:00

It is the month of Merdeka and the hype about 1 Malaysia is going around. So I set out on a task to design a heart shaped cardboard with the theme "1 Hati, 1 Malaysia". I am actually helping someone with this tiny project and we got it done within three and a half hours? Not bad actually considering the fact that I only had huge -tip markers to work with.

This is the overall view while the bottom picture is the close-up. My apologies for the distorted pictures. It was taken with very bad lighting..

So it is the month for us to be united and be grateful that we live in a peaceful country..Happy Merdeka!

SITE UNDER CONSTRUCTION.

2009-07-26T22:40:00.001+08:00

Warning: Some clicks may cause nothing to occur. =P

Rainbows or Clouds?

2009-06-22T10:03:00.003+08:00

"Look in the mirror first and contemplate on yourself before passing the judgement on others.

Leader or follower?
It's your choice, just depends on the actions and initiative taken.

Right or Wrong?
It depends on whether you can face facts or rather stay in a delusional state.

Loyalty or Betrayal?
Good and loyal friends are hard to find.Even those who claim to be your friends can betray you in an instant.

Truth or Lies?
Tell the truth even when no one bothers to believe or even listen. Never lie because lies will always bring about discord.

Love or Hate?
Continuous hatred will just simply bring misery while spreading joy to others will bring happiness to yourself.

Words or Silence?
Speak when necessary and think thoroughly before speaking. Words that are intended to harm will only cause misery to oneself. Be frank and be truthful. "

For the past few weeks, I have seen the many sides of different people. Those whom I thought to be, are not what they appear to be at all. Maybe I am a bad judge of character. I always feel that there are some good in everyone (no matter how many times that person has done something bad to me) and I feel that everyone deserve to have second chances. There are some who told me that I am not living in the real world just because they think that humans cannot be trusted. Well, these people should know better.

I admit that even if that someone has the utmost confidence and also the world's knowledge in their hands, they are no better a human if they cannot be good to others, have compassion and be honest to themselves. There are many people you can meet in this world, various characters that could paint a rainbow in your life or continuously cause incessant rain.

I just know everyone has some good in them, but maybe they do not choose to show it.

If only...

2009-04-27T00:45:00.002+08:00

Have you ever been in a situation where you wake up in the morning, see the beautiful view outside the window, felt glad that it was a new and sunny day and suddenly, BAM!

You remember back all the things that need to be done, wondered how it felt like if things were different and just wish that you could turn back time?
There are times where I wondered how things would be like if I had taken a different choice?

Will I still study so hard if I was not in uni?
Would things be better if I were studying overseas?
Would things be better if I did not think so much?
Would life be easier if I was a bit less giving?
Would life be easier if I gave more?
If I did not do "this" or "that", would things be better?
If I did not do some of the things I did.....
If only I knew...

But living in the present is all I have. No matter how I tried, none of the above or more can be answered.

So after trying to think of the "What ifs'",reality sinks in. Then, I just get up and hope that today will be another good day.

2009-04-23T18:22:00.000+08:00

The snail got crushed.....

" Time is ticking away fast and I am moving like a snail."

2009-04-21T20:04:00.000+08:00

Just feel like it..

2009-04-12T12:32:00.004+08:00

Study week is over and I did not even start studying much. Something has been bothering me or maybe I have been thinking too much about things again..

Yesterday wasted all my credit calling a guy who was involved in an accident with my friend.Basically got yelled at for no reason. Lets just say everything was screwed. Yesterday was chaotic and I wonder why people cant be grateful... sigh..

Just wish everything will go well....

I am no toy.. Please stop playing..

2009-03-25T17:37:00.002+08:00

Lately I feel like I have been played around. Not by people but by chance/fate/ destiny( as Sing Chow calls it) He said, "Go with the flow".

For the past two days, I asked myself ---> S or M?

One offers such a good opportunity, an opportunity that only a fool would turn down.

Chance played with me. S called and said," We are sorry to inform you this but, due to the economy crisis both IT projects had to be cancelled. Therefore, we could not take you as an intern. I am very sorry. I had even prepared the documents thinking it was going to be successful. Sorry again. Thank you". That was the end of the conversation with S.

See how chance played with me? I was offered. Then it was all due to luck that I could not have it. Well.. guess now everything will go as usual. No one will complain, everyone will be happy and I will just do my best at M. It is internship afterall. Now no one can say I am selfish for going to Miri since I am no longer going.

On the plus side, at least I knew that I was good enough for S.

= Maybe fate had something better in store for me... hopefully....=)

2009-03-06T16:38:00.003+08:00

What do you do when someone thinks you're not good enough?
Willingness to try and work hard does not seem to matter. Why can't anyone just give me a chance? Why do I have to constantly prove myself over and over again? Why give a chance to those who do not bother but reject me at the slightest hint?

Why?

So puzzled and so disappointed

Nice story

2009-03-04T12:51:00.001+08:00

EYES

There was a blind girl who hated herself because she was blind. She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend, who was always there for her. She said that if she could only see the world, she would marry her boyfriend. One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her. She could see everything, including her boyfriend. Her boyfriend asked her, “Now that you can see the world, will you marry me?”

The girl was shocked when she saw that her boyfriend was blind, and refused to marry him. Her boyfriend walked away in tears, and later wrote a letter to her saying - “Just take care of my eyes dear.”

~~so touching~~

CNY is around the corner....

2009-01-24T23:50:00.003+08:00

It is finally the holidays for this year's Chinese New Year celebrations. I just came back yesterday after weeks of assignments and work. Even though I did not really have the New Year mood, I still felt many of my friends who did. I attempted to make myself catch the CNY bug, but kind of failed to do so.. However, I did change my blog's header in order to brighten things up. =P

Usually during CNY week, I will be the one decorating the house. However this year,I did not decorate so much. But I do hope that this year would be a joyful year for my family and I.

Even though I hoped it would be joyful but I have to admit that this year, CNY celebrations would be very different for me. There will not be any relatives visiting, no friends coming by and no nice family reunion dinner. Yes.. indeed it is very different to what I was accustomed to but times change and I have to accept the fact.
Therefore, this CNY I will be going to visit my aunt and also a few friends, come back and work( i know that is lame) and maybe just enjoy the holidays. I hardly bought any new clothes but the good news is that I have finally bought a new pair of shoes. Its pink.. and if I had a camera, I would have taken pictures of it and posted it here. (too bad...)

Anyway, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR to everyone. May this year be filled with joy, happiness, love and plenty of opportunities for all.

So what?!

2009-01-21T16:39:00.003+08:00

Ya so what if I am fat.. too bad...
I am dark... OMG.. next time I' ll bathe in milk.
I need not have a reminder....

And I am tired of waiting.... really tired...

What Do You Do When....

2009-01-13T12:48:00.002+08:00

... someone could not understand you?
... someone misunderstands you?
... someone thinks that you are not worth it?
... someone expects you to do it all?
... someone thinks they are better than you?
... someone just makes fun and insults you behind your back?
... someone forgets about you?
... someone pretends to be your friend then shoots you when you were not looking?
... that someone/ bunch of people totally ignores the fact that you exists?
... someone does not take your opinion into account?
... someone assume you have no feelings?

What should I do when no one bothers anymore?
* ponders*

" Life is a box of chocolates..."
( When did I start taking sour and horrible tasting chocolates?)

2009-01-10T17:37:00.001+08:00

I hate this.. I just hate it.. and no one bothers

A little reflection

2009-01-10T16:42:00.003+08:00

It has been three weeks since I started my new semester. Things had changed. I went for Faci workshop camp and ended up having a rough time there. However, I did learn how to judge people. There are some who just simply talk and talk.. so its " yap, yap yap.." but can never walk the talk. Then there are those who ernestly wants to help. Thank goodness there are still people like this in the world. As for the "yappies", I will just tune out the next time I see one.
I had my ups and downs throughout the weeks and I have to admit that I saw these challenges coming. Nothing much I could do but toil through the semester.

Here are a few comments I have on the activties I have been doing since the semester started.

Dhamma Sharing Group (DSG)
I have been officially " promoted" to be the facilitator of the Persatuan Pelajar Buddhist' facilitator( regardless of the fact that I have not completed the faci workshop). The first two classes I have conducted with Mei Chen and Alex went alright but it was the planning phase that really is quite troublesome. I believe punctuality and the intention to try and understand each other is crucial to enable a smoother planning phase.

CS BBQ
Three words: sand in food.
But I admit that it was quite fun and I learnt a few things during the execution of this event.
Basically everyone thinks differently.. and I also learnt that Ah Howe can really start a good fire.
p.s: I caught the MOON!!!! PM helped me catch it..lol (i"ll upload the pic next time)

Faci Workshop camp
Everything in Mandarin( help!!). My brain can relate to a fried processor during the camp. Somewhat I wanted to hang my processor but I could not. Bottomline is that I prefer to learn the Dhamma in English.

Those were the stuff I have been busy doing for the past 3 weeks.... sobz... I am desperately in need of a new pair of sneakers and even that I have difficulty finding a pair. >.<

week 1 ... conquered!

2008-12-27T13:33:00.003+08:00

Finally, the first week of the semester 2 is over. My,my.. was I busy! I had lot to do, meetings to attend. Not to mention that the courses I am taking this year could be considered "Killer" courses.
Lets have a full list of them.

1. Chinese Level 2
2. Spoken English
3. Parallel programming
4. Grid computing
5. Entreprenuership course (WUS101)
6. Algorithm system and design
7. System analysis and design

No. 3,4,6 and 7 can be considered "killer"courses. Anyway, it is another challenge. I always feel tired when it is the beginning of the semester because there is so many things that you need to do and plan. So far, so good. I am still getting through. Plus I have a 5 day break before continuing to the second week.
I have a lot coming at me next week such as a conference, a camp and a new DSG( Dhamma Sharing Group) class to facilitate. Study wise, I have 2 assignment to be done.

ah... life of a USM computer science student...

Can't Wait.....n0 l0nger

2008-11-20T16:57:00.000+08:00

Finally, my last paper ended today and I am done packing my stuff. I am heading back HOME.
Ok, maybe you think " Hey , you never left your hometown". But I still miss home ..

I just can't wait for:
1. cooking (No laughing please, I miss cooking. God knows why)
2. going for the hike with Ming and Keng Yee.
3. Starwalk 2008!!!!
4. movie marathon and a shopping spree.
5. hang out with friends I have not seen for months
6. sleep to my heart's content
7. to jog at Botanical Gardens ( it has been nearly 1/2 year since I been there)
8. watch Madagascar II and Quarantine.
and finally, wait for that one person to come back from Singapore.

Actually , the list is quite extensive and long so those above are just a few main stuff. I do not wanna bore anyone. And if I do, stop reading... ! ( pls proceed to the next item on the page...LOL)

Yes, I have many plans for this holiday but I have much to do too. I have a long, long, long, long list to do ( the redundant "long"s would indicate that I am quite reluctant to start but I have to).

A hint of one of the long things I have to do is to plan for the upcoming CS Nite. God help me in the planning and execution process. My aim for Cs Nite is to make it a fun event and an even better event than it was last year! ( yeah... must get the spirit in d).

By the way, does anyone have any idea for a theme? ( No more posh and classy theme pls.. we are kinda bored of it) =P

Well, I am now goin to enjoy my new found freedom ( although temporary).

HAPPY HOLIDAYS YA'LL!!

Music in My Head

2008-11-19T19:50:00.000+08:00

- MICHAEL BUBLE -

I can't seem to get his songs out of my head.
He keeps singing " Come fly with me" in my head.....then it goes to Fever.
But his voice is really good. =)

danger ---> threatening ---> secured?

2008-11-19T19:36:00.001+08:00

Tomorrow is my final paper, SECURITY!!
[highlighted in red to ensure I take serious note of the impending paper and the seriousness of it]

Anyway, I have been trying to study. My mind cannot seem to be focusing and there seems to be so many obstacles in the way, not to mention that the construction works outside my hostel sounds like a vidoe game where you shoot the monsters.... bang bang bang. Even my roommate agrees that the monster can't die.

I am getting kinda worried about this paper. Partly because I cannot seem to get anything into my head. Another part covers the following:

1. It is a core paper.
2. I did quite well for the coursework, just need to get the final paper over and done with.
3. I refuse to believe I could not comprehend this paper.
4. I just do not want to look back and regret that I did not do the best I could.

I just hope when the time comes tomorrow I can just do my best and pray that my best is good enough for me to ensure a good grade. =)

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After 11 a.m tomorrow, I can start to relax and join my fellow coursemates who finished their final paper on the 17th Nov.(last Monday)

=== Things are looking bright ====

Nearly THE END... I said nearly...

2008-11-04T23:49:00.001+08:00

Last night I had the chance to reminisce about the past semester,( yes ..I know that finals just started) and this was the conclusion :

1. Always make sure you have full control of what you do and ensure that your group members work fine.
2. Have enough sleep ( as if that could happen..)
3. Go backpacking alone or any trip for that matter.
4. No more letting people step over my head.
5. Manage time better and be a more better person.
6. Learn to focus.
7. Go for the meditation classes ( I think it would really help me)
8.Plan early and have a head start.
9. most importantly, Learn to enjoy my uni life..... =)

Besides that, I have also learnt the fact that I am very naive. I have been played by people I thought were my friends. However, now I know who are my true friends and who I should watch my back with ( just in case I get stabbed).

I really appreciate those who stood by me throughout this semester. I had it rough and they helped me along the way. Thanks so much to Sok Li,Keng Yee,Pieh Wen, Frankie, Ah Howe, Meng Chun, Seit Cheng, Sing Chow,Edmund, Tzy Yin, Mei Chen, Alex, Rachel, Pei Fen, Nanthini... all of you truly helped me in many ways and I truly appreciate it. The rest of my Kalyana Mitras which I have not mentioned, I am grateful you all were there too.

Lastly, those far away, my dear Jian , you have always been there ( my real pillar of strength).. and Ming, Sien, you two are just great pals ( miss you guys).

Thanks guys.. without all of you, I would have just been lost..

the AfterMath : Day 1

2008-11-03T12:48:00.000+08:00

Days before today I realised I the sudden urge to draw something and I finally ended up with this..
See that pink teardrop? That's me.. going up there because of CPT211.. ( but i somehow managed to survive)
Phew. It was close.

Anyway, I am pretty sure the rest did well. After the paper, everyone was quite happy. I saw many smiling faces. Maybe we are all glad that one paper is over. =)

Next: killer paper 2---> Database.

OMG!

2008-11-01T18:15:00.000+08:00

..... That sort of sum things up. This week had been a "*speechless*" week. Heck.. I do not even know what to called it. I am starting to panic because I am not really panicking yet... (confused??? ... so am I)
Monday is the first paper (CPT211) of my final exams. Wish me luck...... ( I really need it!)

I now have TW0 options:
1. Be depressed that I have so many hurdles this semester

OR

2. Be grateful I managed to survive and now I have one more huge hurdle to overcome. Even though I have a very very (how shall I put it?) "Unfocused " mind, I still need to stuff all the info I could find and comprehend into my overworked brain. God knows I am trying my best.

Well, all the best to those going through finals especially to my friends who have been to hell and back... =P

After finals, we can rest for a month!!

is it d end?

2008-10-24T18:57:00.000+08:00

31/8

2008-08-31T18:24:00.000+08:00

Happy Merdeka!! Our country is now celebrating it's 51st independence day.

Based on history( and also from the stories my grandma told me), those that truly appreciate Merdeka are those who truly understand how hard it was for our countrymen to gain independence for Malaysia and also able to understand the hardships endured in order to make Malaysia what it is now.. a multi racial country that is bountiful in many ways...

Therefore, look back and appreciate the land we live in now and the people around us..

SELAMAT HARI MERDEKA!!

HAPPY 2ND YEAR ANNIVERSARY TO MY DEAREST HUBBY>

2008-08-14T14:36:00.000+08:00

Well.. the title states it all. It has been a wonderful 2 years... I cant believe how fast it was..
anyway, on this very day I had a wonderful gift from my boyfriend and the gift was simply priceless..

Thank you so much my dear Jian for making this day a memorable day for both of us...

*=)

Meaningful... so meaningful....

2008-07-31T20:34:00.000+08:00

Maybe we have to meet a few wrong
people before meeting the right one so
that when we finally meet the right
person, we will know how to be
grateful for that gift.

When the door of happiness closes,
another opens, but often times we look
so long at the closed door that we
don't see the one which has been opened
for us.

The best kind of friend is the kind
you can sit on a porch and swing with,
never say a word, and then walk away
feeling like it was the best
conversation you've ever had.

It's true that we don't know what
we've got until we lose it, but it's
also true that we don't know what we've
been missing until it arrives.

Giving someone all your love is never
an assurance that they'll love you
back! Don't expect love in return; just
wait for it to grow in their heart but
if it doesn't, be content it grew in
yours.

It takes only a minute to get a
crush on someone, an hour to like
someone, and a day to love someone, but
it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

Don't go for looks; they can deceive.
Don't go for wealth; even that fades
away. Go for someone who makes you
smile because it takes only a smile to
make a dark day seem bright. Find the
one that makes your heart smile

There are moments in life when you
miss someone so much that you just want
to pick them from your dreams and hug
them for real!

Dream what you want to dream; go
where you want to go; be what you want
to be, because you have only one life
and one chance to do all the things you
want to do.

May you have enough happiness to make
you sweet, enough trials to make you
strong, enough sorrow to keep you
human, enough hope to make you happy.

Always put yourself in others' shoes.
If you feel that it hurts you, it
probably hurts the other person, too.

The happiest of people don't
necessarily have the best of
everything; they just make the most of
everything that comes along their way.

Happiness lives for those who cry,
those who hurt, those who have
searched, and those who have tried, for
only they can appreciate the importance
of people who have touched their lives.

Love begins with a smile, grows with a
kiss and ends with a tear. The
brightest future will always be based
on a forgotten past, you can't go on
well in life until you let go of your
past failures and heartaches.

When you were born, you were crying
and everyone around you was smiling.
Live your life so that when you die,
you're the one who is smiling and
everyone around you is crying.

* i did say it was meaningful rite..???!!! *=)

Sleepiezzzzz....

2008-07-31T17:24:00.002+08:00

Finally... Finally...
all have been confirmed and things are beginning to move.So far it felt like everything was a standstill and yet every moment I could feel my energy draining away. Draining into empty space.
The past week had been a dream or somewhat a blur to me. All I knew was the fact that I had plenty of help and support along the way. Help and assistance from those around me truly enabled me to carry on and also learn a few things along the way.

Today was the only day that I actually have the time to sit in front of my computer and I admit that I am truly sleepy for the time being. A better way to phrase it would be : " I am a walking, talking Zombie.." One look at my face and some will run ( haha.... trust me. It really looks bad).All thanks to the fact that I have been staying up late. Hopefully today I can finally get some ZZZzzzz..

server Down!

2008-07-25T18:14:00.001+08:00

Can you believe it?! It happened when I finally finished my proposal and the server crashed on me! I cannot upload any of the data and its is making me so upset.. I hope it will be ok soon as my deadline is tomorrow.. *prays hard*

Anyway it has been a hectic week! I've been planning for my society's interaction day which would be held on the 2nd August (finally) and I still need to get my shirt design out...
Thus... I would like to present the current cs shirt design.. Anyone got any feedback pls get back to me...( I'd really appreciate it)

Labelled a "banana" and proud of it!

2008-07-15T22:23:00.000+08:00

BANANA
Definition: A Chinese who does not speak, write or read the chinese language a.k.a Mandarin. ( labelled banana because like bananas, they are yellow on the outside but white on the inside- meaning; they can speak English more than Mandarin)

Calling someone as a "banana" can be a joke sometimes.. heck..it might be even funny but there is a thin line between a joke and an insult!

However there are some who feels that if an individual have zero knowledge in Chinese, that person is an insult to his own kind... ( sounds serious doesn't it?) How do you define a Chinese? Those who are American Chinese are still part Chinese regardless of the language they know. So am I not Chinese?

I am not ashamed of being a "banana" because I know I take the initiative to learn Chinese. I have tried my best to learn as much as I can. I am happy with the fact that there are people who are willing to teach those like me to speak Chinese and in return I help them with their English. For example, those from my Faci camp. They helped me translate the talks conducted in Chinese even though I could clearly see that they are having a difficult time doing so. However, they still insisted on helping me. <>

It is these people that made me realised that those who laugh in your face when you tell them you can't speak Chinese are not even worth thinking about. My friends are proof that they are willing to try to improve themselves and that they are not sceptical or prejudiced against those like me.

I once asked a few of my new found friends on their first impression of me. At first,they thought I was cocky due to the fact that I kept speaking English. But they learned the truth and now, we all get along so well regardless of the language barrier. See how the situation differs from those who just base everything on the first thought or impression on "banana"s. I hope that those who read this, if your friend happens to be a " banana" like me , do not laugh, tease or avoid him. Instead get to know him and who knows , you might find a good friend in that person..

Let me finish off with this line;
"Among true friends , language will not be a barrier but a bond that will bind those who are different together"

Wheee!! or huhu...sobz

2008-07-11T13:20:00.002+08:00

Reasons for "whee-ing"
1. I am going to Faci workshop camp this weekend.. I am kind of excited by it..!
2. I cant wait till Sunday night!!
3. My best friend is coming back next weekend.. =)
4. The Mummy 3 is out... yoohoo...!

and for "huhu-ing"
1. I can't get any internet connection in my room. This is terrible. I need the connection!
2. Even though I am excited with the camp, I kinda dread the fact that it is conducted in Mandarin. I so hope that they will help translate it to me. I do not want to be a lost sheep.
3. I don't have the chance to watch the Mummy 3 now..
4. Someone dear to me is leaving next week... (huhuhuhu)
5. What happened to the English class? help!

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Had a wake up call this morning when it suddenly hit me that I have 7 projects to complete this semester and 5 of it are group projects... Boy! Its going to be one busy semester..
I have to learn JAVA,PERL,ORACLE, etc... Even listing them make me feel slightly overwhelmed and dizzy.
Anyway, was feeling kinda down yesterday. Something was missing and I knew what it was but I don't know how to get it back. Why is it that all good things will go away? I dont want it to.
huhu...
Guess I better start finishing the homework I have. I am still in the holiday mood and it had caused me to be forgetful and lazy or just tired. Feel like going for a swim soon.( better put a reminder on that. haha)
I gotta pack and prep.. For camp, they asked me to bring along a peaceful mind..( I'd try .. hehe)
Hope all is well by the end of the days.. cheerio!

.....

2008-07-10T16:15:00.000+08:00

today was a rainy day... sigh..

- i wish i could get a digital camera....-
*sigh*

Started and not going to Pause !!!

2008-07-09T11:04:00.000+08:00

I am finally a 2nd year student!! :P

The new semester had just started and somehow, I feel excited. Yes... I admit that I am still kinda in the holiday mood but hey.. this is what new semesters are all about.. We get new challenges and the best part is we get to meet new people..while strengthening the bonds with friends. Hehe..
Anyway , I have a feeling its going to be another tough year ahead.
I have always been so busy for the past year I think I have the right to deem myself a workaholic.. I cant sit still.. always have to move around..haha..
Really hope this year will be great not just for me but for my friends as well... Best of luck to u guys!! Lets enjoy this year to the fullest ya... :)

h. e.l.p.....

2008-04-29T13:43:00.000+08:00

I have been in the lab for the past one week staring at the computer till my eyes melt( literally.. you can actually see all the tears flowing out).

CAN anyone just help me with my eyes.... before they totally melt away!!

** okay.. I am just bored... This post proves how bored I am.. =)

Worry Much?

2008-04-28T16:35:00.002+08:00

It was a horrible day. Nothing went my way and I was under a lot of stress. It can clearly be seen that I was having a rough day. I avoided everyone as to not " bite off" anyone's head. I felt that the world was against me.However, I manage to find comfort from a poem. This poem was something i found while surfing the net for something.. anything that could just brighten my day. This poem really helped ( with the support from someone special , of course).

Here is a verse from the poem that i find truly meaningful. It is something that would keep me going for days to come.

" Nothing wastes more energy than worrying.
The longer one carries a problem the heavier it gets.
Do not take things too seriously.
Live a life of serenity, not a life of regrets. "

Ok .. I admit. I may be a worry-wart but hey...I do truly believe that life is too short for us to worry it away.

~winz-sical~