week 1 ... conquered!

Finally, the first week of the semester 2 is over. My,my.. was I busy! I had lot to do, meetings to attend. Not to mention that the courses I am taking this year could be considered "Killer" courses.
Lets have a full list of them.

1. Chinese Level 2
2. Spoken English
3. Parallel programming
4. Grid computing
5. Entreprenuership course (WUS101)
6. Algorithm system and design
7. System analysis and design

No. 3,4,6 and 7 can be considered "killer"courses. Anyway, it is another challenge. I always feel tired when it is the beginning of the semester because there is so many things that you need to do and plan. So far, so good. I am still getting through. Plus I have a 5 day break before continuing to the second week.
I have a lot coming at me next week such as a conference, a camp and a new DSG( Dhamma Sharing Group) class to facilitate. Study wise, I have 2 assignment to be done.

ah... life of a USM computer science student...

Can't Wait.....n0 l0nger

Finally, my last paper ended today and I am done packing my stuff. I am heading back HOME.
Ok, maybe you think " Hey , you never left your hometown". But I still miss home ..

I just can't wait for:
1. cooking (No laughing please, I miss cooking. God knows why)
2. going for the hike with Ming and Keng Yee.
3. Starwalk 2008!!!!
4. movie marathon and a shopping spree.
5. hang out with friends I have not seen for months
6. sleep to my heart's content
7. to jog at Botanical Gardens ( it has been nearly 1/2 year since I been there)
8. watch Madagascar II and Quarantine.
and finally, wait for that one person to come back from Singapore.

Actually , the list is quite extensive and long so those above are just a few main stuff. I do not wanna bore anyone. And if I do, stop reading... ! ( pls proceed to the next item on the page...LOL)

Yes, I have many plans for this holiday but I have much to do too. I have a long, long, long, long list to do ( the redundant "long"s would indicate that I am quite reluctant to start but I have to).

A hint of one of the long things I have to do is to plan for the upcoming CS Nite. God help me in the planning and execution process. My aim for Cs Nite is to make it a fun event and an even better event than it was last year! ( yeah... must get the spirit in d).

By the way, does anyone have any idea for a theme? ( No more posh and classy theme pls.. we are kinda bored of it) =P

Well, I am now goin to enjoy my new found freedom ( although temporary).

HAPPY HOLIDAYS YA'LL!!

Music in My Head

- MICHAEL BUBLE -

I can't seem to get his songs out of my head.
He keeps singing " Come fly with me" in my head.....then it goes to Fever.
But his voice is really good. =)

danger ---> threatening ---> secured?

Tomorrow is my final paper, SECURITY!!
[highlighted in red to ensure I take serious note of the impending paper and the seriousness of it]

Anyway, I have been trying to study. My mind cannot seem to be focusing and there seems to be so many obstacles in the way, not to mention that the construction works outside my hostel sounds like a vidoe game where you shoot the monsters.... bang bang bang. Even my roommate agrees that the monster can't die.

I am getting kinda worried about this paper. Partly because I cannot seem to get anything into my head. Another part covers the following:

1. It is a core paper.
2. I did quite well for the coursework, just need to get the final paper over and done with.
3. I refuse to believe I could not comprehend this paper.
4. I just do not want to look back and regret that I did not do the best I could.

I just hope when the time comes tomorrow I can just do my best and pray that my best is good enough for me to ensure a good grade. =)

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After 11 a.m tomorrow, I can start to relax and join my fellow coursemates who finished their final paper on the 17th Nov.(last Monday)

=== Things are looking bright ====

Nearly THE END... I said nearly...

Last night I had the chance to reminisce about the past semester,( yes ..I know that finals just started) and this was the conclusion :

1. Always make sure you have full control of what you do and ensure that your group members work fine.
2. Have enough sleep ( as if that could happen..)
3. Go backpacking alone or any trip for that matter.
4. No more letting people step over my head.
5. Manage time better and be a more better person.
6. Learn to focus.
7. Go for the meditation classes ( I think it would really help me)
8.Plan early and have a head start.
9. most importantly, Learn to enjoy my uni life..... =)

Besides that, I have also learnt the fact that I am very naive. I have been played by people I thought were my friends. However, now I know who are my true friends and who I should watch my back with ( just in case I get stabbed).

I really appreciate those who stood by me throughout this semester. I had it rough and they helped me along the way. Thanks so much to Sok Li,Keng Yee,Pieh Wen, Frankie, Ah Howe, Meng Chun, Seit Cheng, Sing Chow,Edmund, Tzy Yin, Mei Chen, Alex, Rachel, Pei Fen, Nanthini... all of you truly helped me in many ways and I truly appreciate it. The rest of my Kalyana Mitras which I have not mentioned, I am grateful you all were there too.

Lastly, those far away, my dear Jian , you have always been there ( my real pillar of strength).. and Ming, Sien, you two are just great pals ( miss you guys).

Thanks guys.. without all of you, I would have just been lost..

the AfterMath : Day 1

Days before today I realised I the sudden urge to draw something and I finally ended up with this..
See that pink teardrop? That's me.. going up there because of CPT211.. ( but i somehow managed to survive)
Phew. It was close.

Anyway, I am pretty sure the rest did well. After the paper, everyone was quite happy. I saw many smiling faces. Maybe we are all glad that one paper is over. =)

Next: killer paper 2---> Database.

OMG!

..... That sort of sum things up. This week had been a "*speechless*" week. Heck.. I do not even know what to called it. I am starting to panic because I am not really panicking yet... (confused??? ... so am I)
Monday is the first paper (CPT211) of my final exams. Wish me luck...... ( I really need it!)

I now have TW0 options:
1. Be depressed that I have so many hurdles this semester

OR

2. Be grateful I managed to survive and now I have one more huge hurdle to overcome. Even though I have a very very (how shall I put it?) "Unfocused " mind, I still need to stuff all the info I could find and comprehend into my overworked brain. God knows I am trying my best.

Well, all the best to those going through finals especially to my friends who have been to hell and back... =P

After finals, we can rest for a month!!

is it d end?

31/8

Happy Merdeka!! Our country is now celebrating it's 51st independence day.

Based on history( and also from the stories my grandma told me), those that truly appreciate Merdeka are those who truly understand how hard it was for our countrymen to gain independence for Malaysia and also able to understand the hardships endured in order to make Malaysia what it is now.. a multi racial country that is bountiful in many ways...

Therefore, look back and appreciate the land we live in now and the people around us..

SELAMAT HARI MERDEKA!!

HAPPY 2ND YEAR ANNIVERSARY TO MY DEAREST HUBBY>

Well.. the title states it all. It has been a wonderful 2 years... I cant believe how fast it was..
anyway, on this very day I had a wonderful gift from my boyfriend and the gift was simply priceless..

Thank you so much my dear Jian for making this day a memorable day for both of us...

*=)

Meaningful... so meaningful....

Maybe we have to meet a few wrong
people before meeting the right one so
that when we finally meet the right
person, we will know how to be
grateful for that gift.

When the door of happiness closes,
another opens, but often times we look
so long at the closed door that we
don't see the one which has been opened
for us.

The best kind of friend is the kind
you can sit on a porch and swing with,
never say a word, and then walk away
feeling like it was the best
conversation you've ever had.

It's true that we don't know what
we've got until we lose it, but it's
also true that we don't know what we've
been missing until it arrives.

Giving someone all your love is never
an assurance that they'll love you
back! Don't expect love in return; just
wait for it to grow in their heart but
if it doesn't, be content it grew in
yours.

It takes only a minute to get a
crush on someone, an hour to like
someone, and a day to love someone, but
it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

Don't go for looks; they can deceive.
Don't go for wealth; even that fades
away. Go for someone who makes you
smile because it takes only a smile to
make a dark day seem bright. Find the
one that makes your heart smile

There are moments in life when you
miss someone so much that you just want
to pick them from your dreams and hug
them for real!

Dream what you want to dream; go
where you want to go; be what you want
to be, because you have only one life
and one chance to do all the things you
want to do.

May you have enough happiness to make
you sweet, enough trials to make you
strong, enough sorrow to keep you
human, enough hope to make you happy.

Always put yourself in others' shoes.
If you feel that it hurts you, it
probably hurts the other person, too.

The happiest of people don't
necessarily have the best of
everything; they just make the most of
everything that comes along their way.

Happiness lives for those who cry,
those who hurt, those who have
searched, and those who have tried, for
only they can appreciate the importance
of people who have touched their lives.

Love begins with a smile, grows with a
kiss and ends with a tear. The
brightest future will always be based
on a forgotten past, you can't go on
well in life until you let go of your
past failures and heartaches.

When you were born, you were crying
and everyone around you was smiling.
Live your life so that when you die,
you're the one who is smiling and
everyone around you is crying.

* i did say it was meaningful rite..???!!! *=)

Sleepiezzzzz....

Finally... Finally...
all have been confirmed and things are beginning to move.So far it felt like everything was a standstill and yet every moment I could feel my energy draining away. Draining into empty space.
The past week had been a dream or somewhat a blur to me. All I knew was the fact that I had plenty of help and support along the way. Help and assistance from those around me truly enabled me to carry on and also learn a few things along the way.

Today was the only day that I actually have the time to sit in front of my computer and I admit that I am truly sleepy for the time being. A better way to phrase it would be : " I am a walking, talking Zombie.." One look at my face and some will run ( haha.... trust me. It really looks bad).All thanks to the fact that I have been staying up late. Hopefully today I can finally get some ZZZzzzz..

server Down!

Can you believe it?! It happened when I finally finished my proposal and the server crashed on me! I cannot upload any of the data and its is making me so upset.. I hope it will be ok soon as my deadline is tomorrow.. *prays hard*

Anyway it has been a hectic week! I've been planning for my society's interaction day which would be held on the 2nd August (finally) and I still need to get my shirt design out...
Thus... I would like to present the current cs shirt design.. Anyone got any feedback pls get back to me...( I'd really appreciate it)

Labelled a "banana" and proud of it!

BANANA
Definition: A Chinese who does not speak, write or read the chinese language a.k.a Mandarin. ( labelled banana because like bananas, they are yellow on the outside but white on the inside- meaning; they can speak English more than Mandarin)

Calling someone as a "banana" can be a joke sometimes.. heck..it might be even funny but there is a thin line between a joke and an insult!

However there are some who feels that if an individual have zero knowledge in Chinese, that person is an insult to his own kind... ( sounds serious doesn't it?) How do you define a Chinese? Those who are American Chinese are still part Chinese regardless of the language they know. So am I not Chinese?

I am not ashamed of being a "banana" because I know I take the initiative to learn Chinese. I have tried my best to learn as much as I can. I am happy with the fact that there are people who are willing to teach those like me to speak Chinese and in return I help them with their English. For example, those from my Faci camp. They helped me translate the talks conducted in Chinese even though I could clearly see that they are having a difficult time doing so. However, they still insisted on helping me. <>

It is these people that made me realised that those who laugh in your face when you tell them you can't speak Chinese are not even worth thinking about. My friends are proof that they are willing to try to improve themselves and that they are not sceptical or prejudiced against those like me.

I once asked a few of my new found friends on their first impression of me. At first,they thought I was cocky due to the fact that I kept speaking English. But they learned the truth and now, we all get along so well regardless of the language barrier. See how the situation differs from those who just base everything on the first thought or impression on "banana"s. I hope that those who read this, if your friend happens to be a " banana" like me , do not laugh, tease or avoid him. Instead get to know him and who knows , you might find a good friend in that person..

Let me finish off with this line;
"Among true friends , language will not be a barrier but a bond that will bind those who are different together"

Wheee!! or huhu...*sobz*

Reasons for "whee-ing"
1. I am going to Faci workshop camp this weekend.. I am kind of excited by it..!
2. I cant wait till Sunday night!!
3. My best friend is coming back next weekend.. =)
4. The Mummy 3 is out... yoohoo...!

and for "huhu-ing"
1. I can't get any internet connection in my room. This is terrible. I need the connection!
2. Even though I am excited with the camp, I kinda dread the fact that it is conducted in Mandarin. I so hope that they will help translate it to me. I do not want to be a lost sheep.
3. I don't have the chance to watch the Mummy 3 now..
4. Someone dear to me is leaving next week... (huhuhuhu)
5. What happened to the English class? help!

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Had a wake up call this morning when it suddenly hit me that I have 7 projects to complete this semester and 5 of it are group projects... Boy! Its going to be one busy semester..
I have to learn JAVA,PERL,ORACLE, etc... Even listing them make me feel slightly overwhelmed and dizzy.
Anyway, was feeling kinda down yesterday. Something was missing and I knew what it was but I don't know how to get it back. Why is it that all good things will go away? I dont want it to.
huhu...
Guess I better start finishing the homework I have. I am still in the holiday mood and it had caused me to be forgetful and lazy or just tired. Feel like going for a swim soon.( better put a reminder on that. haha)
I gotta pack and prep.. For camp, they asked me to bring along a peaceful mind..( I'd try .. hehe)
Hope all is well by the end of the days.. cheerio!

.....

today was a rainy day... sigh..

- i wish i could get a digital camera....-
*sigh*

Started and not going to Pause !!!

I am finally a 2nd year student!! :P

The new semester had just started and somehow, I feel excited. Yes... I admit that I am still kinda in the holiday mood but hey.. this is what new semesters are all about.. We get new challenges and the best part is we get to meet new people..while strengthening the bonds with friends. Hehe..
Anyway , I have a feeling its going to be another tough year ahead.
I have always been so busy for the past year I think I have the right to deem myself a workaholic.. I cant sit still.. always have to move around..haha..
Really hope this year will be great not just for me but for my friends as well... Best of luck to u guys!! Lets enjoy this year to the fullest ya... :)

h. e.l.p.....

I have been in the lab for the past one week staring at the computer till my eyes melt( literally.. you can actually see all the tears flowing out).

CAN anyone just help me with my eyes.... before they totally melt away!!

** okay.. I am just bored... This post proves how bored I am.. =)

Worry Much?

It was a horrible day. Nothing went my way and I was under a lot of stress. It can clearly be seen that I was having a rough day. I avoided everyone as to not " bite off" anyone's head. I felt that the world was against me.However, I manage to find comfort from a poem. This poem was something i found while surfing the net for something.. anything that could just brighten my day. This poem really helped ( with the support from someone special , of course).

Here is a verse from the poem that i find truly meaningful. It is something that would keep me going for days to come.

" Nothing wastes more energy than worrying.
The longer one carries a problem the heavier it gets.
Do not take things too seriously.
Live a life of serenity, not a life of regrets. "

Ok .. I admit. I may be a worry-wart but hey...I do truly believe that life is too short for us to worry it away.

~winz-sical~